Reflection

Here I sit.

Almost exactly one year from drafting my previous post.

How are things?

Well, I am happy to report that we are still here.

We are still fighting for our marriage.

We are still fighting for our family.

It has not been easy.

More than once I have wanted to give  up and give in.

But, who would have really been the loser?

All of us . . .

My husband has done everything I have asked.

We've spent time in therapy, together, and apart.

We've prayed.

We had others pray for us.

We've cried together.

We've had more new great times together.

Most importantly, my perspective changed.

What does that mean?

It means the I learned who the real enemy was.

I learned who and what I really needed to be fighting.

It's not my husband.

It's not my marriage.

It's certainly not God.

There is an evil in this world.

It will do anything to bring you down.

It will go to no end to break you.

The question is, what will you do about it?

I for one, will not allow that.

I learned to get on my knees and fight the real fight.

Prayer and prayer alone is my weapon.

It is the only I have at all times to get me through.

I literally walked through my house and drove out the demons.

I drove out the bad thoughts.

I drove out the evil.

I told it that it was no longer welcome in my home and to get out.

Then, I invited God.

I seriously stood there and invited God into my home.

I prayed over my kids, my house, my  husband, my marriage.

I blatantly said that I needed help and I didn't want to do it on my own anymore.

Guess what?

The entire attitude in my house changed.

I am calmer and slower to anger with my children.

I am calmer and slower to anger with my husband.

I give myself grace.

GRACE.

Where would we be without God's grace?

I shudder to think about it.

So, I guess my point is this:

Who are you really fighting?

What are you really fighting?

What war are you up against and what do you have in your arsenal to get through it?

I cannot tell you enough how driving out the bad and inviting the good changed my life.

My prayer life has drastically changed.

I encourage you to look at your life and see what you need to change to life yourself up.

I will never go back to how I was trying to handle things  before.

It's looking up from here. . .

By the grace of God.